Pod blocked - Doubt and the release of the podfic "Sherlock's Love Letters"

[alessnox]

Title: Sherlock's Love Letters
Author: Alessnox
Fandom: BBC Sherlock
Pairing: Sherlock Holmes/Victor Trevor
Rating: Mature
Genre: Science, Romance, Break-up, First Time, Poetry, Poesy
Length: 14 minutes 45 seconds

Story: Sherlock Holmes was not always the emotionless robot that he likes people to think he was. There was a time in University when he was in love. Poetic memoirs of his romance with upperclassman Victor Trevor.

Source file: http://www.rozzychan.net/SLL2.mp3
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I hadn't made a podfic in a very long time, but earlier this week I went out and made a short one of a lesser read fic of mine called Sherlock's love letters and I realized that I am having a very bad crisis.

I am seeing all of the flaws in my stories, and thinking that podding is a waste of time. I begin to see why it may be better if someone other than the author reads their work. If you are doubting your skill, then it hurts to second-guess yourself.

I'm at the point where I look at my story and think that it's all crap. I was always very sensitive about my poetry, and this story was a kind of poetry or poesy at least. Also, if I try to read it emotionally, it seems like I am overacting terribly.

What do you do when you shudder to upload your work because you're afraid of mythical people sitting around saying. "What is that crap that you're listening to?"