Podfic notes: The morning after, versions
Jun. 15th, 2018 07:02 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
alessnox This story, though popular on AO3 is less popular on fanfiction.net. This may have to do with the fact that the AO3 version contains explicit sex scenes, and the ffnet version does not. Personally I can’t tell which is better. The one with sex has more time for characterization, but the sex scenes...
1. When I read my own sex scenes, they sound cheesy to me. I feel self conscious.
2. The no sex version is shorter.
3. I have a limited window when I can read the sex scenes without my kids or husband being around to hear me.
4. There is some prudish part of myself that feels that if I record myself describing sex scenes that I will have it come back to me and cause me trouble, and that is so sad. It is so sad it makes me cry that in 2018, at my age, that I would worry about schools, or judges, or legal cases for reading things, but I remember things like the women jailed in China, and the damn content filters, and laws that arbitrarily change making things illegal that were once legal, and I feel so mad at myself for feeling fear. What if the website I post this on labels me as someone who distributes pornography to minors? Is that a felony?
Then I calm myself down, and say, If that is the case, you are already doomed for having written it in the first place. In for a penny, in for a pound.
5. All this will come through in my voice and make me sound hesitant or embarrassed, and there is nothing worse than an embarrassed reading of a person’s work. I almost wish I could get somone else to read those bits. It would work for this work because there are three different voices.
in the end, I think I will start by reading the explicit version while they’re sleeping. If my husband hears me, he will laugh, and mockery doesn’t make it any easier to read. More later.
1. When I read my own sex scenes, they sound cheesy to me. I feel self conscious.
2. The no sex version is shorter.
3. I have a limited window when I can read the sex scenes without my kids or husband being around to hear me.
4. There is some prudish part of myself that feels that if I record myself describing sex scenes that I will have it come back to me and cause me trouble, and that is so sad. It is so sad it makes me cry that in 2018, at my age, that I would worry about schools, or judges, or legal cases for reading things, but I remember things like the women jailed in China, and the damn content filters, and laws that arbitrarily change making things illegal that were once legal, and I feel so mad at myself for feeling fear. What if the website I post this on labels me as someone who distributes pornography to minors? Is that a felony?
Then I calm myself down, and say, If that is the case, you are already doomed for having written it in the first place. In for a penny, in for a pound.
5. All this will come through in my voice and make me sound hesitant or embarrassed, and there is nothing worse than an embarrassed reading of a person’s work. I almost wish I could get somone else to read those bits. It would work for this work because there are three different voices.
in the end, I think I will start by reading the explicit version while they’re sleeping. If my husband hears me, he will laugh, and mockery doesn’t make it any easier to read. More later.
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