The need for external affirmation

Oft time I find myself waiting for reviews.

I go to my writing pages and look to see if anyone has added a comment or like.

It's as if I can't be satisfied if I don't get someone saying:

OMFG You are such an awesome writter. Oh! the feels!!!!

Somehow that makes me seem really pathetic. When did I become depended on others for my self-worth? Was it always that way? Have I spent my entire life looking for others to press the like button?

And how does that effect my writing?

Do I make choices based on the fact that more people will like a work it if I add some sexual innuendo even if it isn't best for the story? Do I listen to the comments of people who know much less about the subject than I do? Let negative comments rule me and make me hit my head against a wall? Do I take the fact that others have things to do in real life that prevents them from commenting on my work as a judgment on me? Do I believe that lack of external affirmation makes me and what I do worthless?

Is there a 12 step program for this? Reviewers anonymous perhaps?

Hello my name is Aless and I'm a reviewaholic.

any others out there?
am I alone?
alone?

Oh God... the emptiness....

< EMO smiley >